Without exceptions, "An Heroes" are made, not born.
You simply cannot be an An Hero, get over it.

When otherwise normal and rational people fondly eulogize and honor those that have killed before them, that's when an "An Hero" is made. Like it or not, somebody out there probably gives a shirt about HBeretta or anyone else on the leaderboards.

Could anyone say the same about you?

That's why you'll never amount to anything.

You'll never be "An Hero". Don't let us stop you from trying, though. Having said that, becoming an hero is diddly because you won't be able to see the end of your successful endeavors.
There is no half/almost/soon An Hero. Either you blow brains out and become an An Hero or don't, but in your case, please do.

Official Platoon Song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyLrgbMyT4E

Feel free to apply.